如果能夠都記得就好了

Installation views and exhibited works in 2009 GEISAI TAIWAN

「我本來只是個愛玩相機的孩子，在拍完相片推出攝影集後，我才發現自己是個攝影師。」——Larry Clark

攝影被說成這麼艱深，對我而言拍照簡單多了，而且還常害羞於此，儘管是躲在鏡頭後。處在其中，適時地用相機與生活對話，用鏡頭的距離與世界相處，只有它不會說謊。

一直在紀錄自己，拍攝既親密又熟悉的朋友、生活中的細碎、以及所有曾經在身邊經過的偶爾。被最真實的情緒、最直接的反應所吸引，儘管沒有時時刻刻按下快 門，但卻都用最誠實的眼睛看見了、參與並且記住了。攝影留下了回憶，無論矛盾、焦慮、喜樂、瘋狂，過程是彼此吸引的親密接觸，你我共同存在的證據，分秒裡 一瞬間的永恆化。

其實我好害怕拍人群，我們都該保持著距離，避免一切的互相傷害。總想躲在遠遠的角落，躲在一旁靜靜看著就好。好怕必須 對誰說：我可以拍你嗎？真希望拍照時自己可以變透明，也許更希望無時無刻都能透明，這樣才能夠被看得更清楚。我只是想用自己的方式去看見，再選擇保留與否 的結果，不想多做無謂的解釋與說她們的故事。每個人都有的秘密，不該藉由我去訴說。每個人都要一個夢，是一種關於說不清，我想我看見了，而我也留住了，那瞬間。

If Only I Could Have Remembered Everything…

“Once I was just a kid who loved playing with the camera. It wasn’t until I’d taken a lot of pictures and published my own portfolio that I discovered I was a photographer.” ——Larry Clark

The way people talk about photography often makes it far too complicated. I think taking pictures is something much simpler, and I often feel embarrassed about it, even though I’m hiding behind the camera. I like using the camera to shoot my everyday life and see the world through its lens. Only the camera tells the truth.

I’ve always been recording myself, taking pictures of my close friends, capturing bits and pieces of life as well as all those passing, chance moments. I’m especially fascinated by true emotions and straightforward reactions. Although I don’t shoot everything at every moment, the camera allows me to see things honestly, remember them and become part of them. No matter whether photographs leave us with ambivalent, anxious, joyful or crazy memories, they witness our mutual interactions and existence when we’re together, seizing present moments and making them eternal.

In fact, I’m really afraid of shooting people. To avoid any possible harm, I think we should all stay away from each other. I always want to hide myself in a distant corner, silently observing things go by. I hate it when I have to ask somebody: Can I take picture of you? And how I wish I could be invisible when I’m shooting pictures. Perhaps it would be perfect if I were invisible all the time, then I could see myself more clearly. I just want to see things in my own way, and decide if I want to keep them in my mind, without over-explaining or talking on and on about others’ stories. Everyone has their own secrets, and it’s not up to me to speak for them. Everyone also needs a dream, a dream of something inexpressible and indescribable. I guess I’ve seen it and seized it, at that very moment.